Shred Day #7

Why is this getting harder? Am I getting wimpy or somethin'? Or am I overexerting myself? I did pilates this morning as I mentioned earlier. Then I did the water aerobics as planned. They took about 15 minutes. It was fun because my Mom did them with me. Then I ran around the pool for half an hour to create a giant whirlpool (as planned). After 10 minutes, I'd turn around and run against the flow. Man was that tough. I was sweating and I was in the pool... kept having to dunk to cool off. So yes, maybe I am doing too much now and that is why the Shred is getting harder. I'm not sure if "too much" is really the right words though. It might be just enough. I am still able to get it all in, so why back off a bit? I think tomorrow I'm going to take a break from everything but the Shred. I'm not even going to go to the pool. It's going to be 107 degrees tomorrow again (it was today too), and I'm just going to stay home in the nice AC and get some chores done.

I had five points left after dinner and couldn't decide what to use them on. When I was putting the baby to bed, I had a vision of a chocolate Vitatop w/1 tbsp of peanut butter on it. I think that thinking about eating that is what got me through my workout tonight. But when it was all over and I was literally dripping with sweat, the last thing I wanted to eat was peanut butter and chocolate. I'm eating a peach w/ff redi-whip on it instead. What a nice, light and refreshing snack. And, it's only 2 points, so I still have three to use for whatever.

There's a show on tonight called "More to Love". It's basically a fat bachelor show. These women are talking about how happy they are and how big women are just as lovable as skinny women. I'm sitting here trying to figure out a way to write this without offending anyone, but who am I worried about? Myself? I'm one of these "big" women. But I just prefer to call myself fat. And, being one of these fat women... am I happy? No! And every woman I know who's overweight is not happy. So for these women to go on the show acting like every thing is hunky-dory is a crock. They are not happy... they wont be happy until they do something about their weight. And finding a man who loves them they way they are, doesn't really care about their happiness. But then again, the guy is a fatty too, so he probably isn't happy either. Okay, I'm sorry if I've offended anyone out there, but c'mon, we all know it's the truth.

I'm going to eat my peaches and cream now and cozy in to the couch to watch the fat bachelor.